Monday, May 17, 2010
Last blogged @ 7:31 PM

let me breathe once more, please.

Yesterday got my work.
Told John i won't be working on 23rd May.
I've got GDOP GDOP GDOP!
I'm so looking forward towards it kay! :D
Went to Benzi's house after that.
Watched Shrek 1 and 3.
Well, bad things along the way.
I can't explain how much i hate myself for using the words.

Today is the start of paper collections.
English paper is just a killing paper to me.
Can't score at all.
Art; I PASSED. Unbelievable. :D
Though i still got one not done yet.
Home Econ paper is horrible.
Study so much only give me a 'just pass' grade.
Maths paper was super disappointed.
Betted with Jeremy Heng will get A1.
Didn't do it. So disappointed with myself.
(Actually i just want the money. :x)

After school stayed back with Benzi, Syahin, Jermaine and Rena.
We had lunch, Benzi and Rena left first.
Syahin, Jermaine and I went to Simei.
Syahin's carrot cake. (:
Haha. Then we got onto Bus 12.
We walked long journey with our songs and my craziness. :D
I had bun dung, i thought it will quench my thirst.
Yet it was sweeeeeeet. :s
Syahin got her CARROT CAKE. :D
Jermaine got her ICE JELLYJELLY. :D
I went to some gift shop.
The telephone with the bikini thing.
Well, it's funny yet weird. Haha!
Saw many things. (:
In the toilet, Jermaine and Syahin had war inside. Haha!
Syahin got her FAVOURITE SWEET.
Jermaine took Bus 9 and we took Bus 5.
Was squeezy in the bus.
Had seats and we talked all the way.
Was homed around 6plus.
Chatted with Syahin for awhile.
I really need to check my holiday schedule manzxc. So blurrrrrr.
Sigh. Need to work during June Holidays.
NOT FUN AT ALL.
Well, I still have to spend time with my friendszxc. (:

Just hope tomorrow will be a better grades day.
So nervous yet not.
Ugh. got CCA. Competition is coming.
When will everything end? ):

I want to apologise to someone whom i disappoint so much.
I know she won't be able to see this.
But i want to let her know that I'm sorry for what i said.
Words can't describe how much i hurt her.
And how much she meant to me.
Through everything i did, she was always there for me.
Always by my side without me knowing.
She do things quietly.
Her words were hurting yet i took it in heart.
I've known her for 14 years. How foolish am i to talk back to her.
I've been so rude. Never know how she felt.
My bad temper came back again.
I'm really sorry for what i said.
I can't believe one small thing made me so mad at her.
How lousy can i be.
I don't want to ask her for forgiveness, i just want to let her know I'm sorry.
I know she love me.
I've been trying to change for her but.
Seeing it now, i see how much she sacrifice for me.
All i do is complaining about her.
I'm such a useless person. I can't do anything now.
I don't even have the courage to open my mouth to apologise.
What should i do now? I'm an utter failure.
Lord, please help me.

To Jermaine:
In whatever you do. Please do know friends like us will always be there for you. Don't feel discourage over anything. Don't be upset. Stand up yourself kay. You can do it! :D

To Syahin:
Thankyou for being my listening ear. I always thought i needed someone to talk to. Thankyou for being the one. You too ah. Cannot sad over anything kay. We all will there for you. *tada!*

Signed off,
Awzxc.